It's all hidden.

wad an enlightening week it has been..i finally stopped deluding myself n dis other person abt our grp of friends..things definitely has changed..suddenly we're now 2 saperate parties..it was expected actually since da amt of time we spend wif each other as a grp is actually less den an hr a day..but,da transition since to be too fast for dis friend..guess she is rather upset with what was becoming to us..whatever it is,i juz hope our relationship wont get strained since we will be seeing each other for da rest of our poly lifes..

on a brighter note,some1 wrote a poem for me..well,half of it anyway..here it is..

White Rose ( part 1 )
White Rose
dancing rain drops.
not even the water drops has such delicate hands
not even the snow has such been as white before as they land.
just like the pony covered with sand,,
should i climb over your window to give you a white rose,
or should i just be content being near but a distant away.
why should we believe in celebrations,
they don't last anyway,
id say, reincarnation?
why should we envy that diamonds are forever
when they are covered with bloods of the poverty,
nothing lasts forever,
but figures are till infinity,
but you made me smile.
in my deepest thought,
i pondered,and wondered.
will it be forever,
through the hands of the crippled,
only by nature they seem,
being wheeledchair around is not a joyful sight.
but being the hope that created the smile,
will remain blessed by Him,
you have given me what others cant,
to live and love life.
to be loved takes a miracle.
to have a miracle,
we must believe,..
believe in mystical?
life is a destination,
where it may lead is just a cycle
but love is a commitment,
like a pair of cuffs being shackled..
...

sweet isnt it?

fad's told you a secret at 8:35 PM .

things r juz so fucked up..

i guess i m pathetic..
my parents are constantly fucked up wif me..my friends r beginnin to move away..my cuz thinks im out to destroy her..my bedroom looks like a fuckin piece of crap..basically,my whole damn life is in a mess..

parents,
stop pushin me n i might stop pushin u away..

friends,
i wish to be there for every1 but some things i juz cant help..pls understand..

cuz,
u will probably not see dis but i'll juz say it anyway..
i will never,ever do anythin dat will hurt u..im sorry if u didnt like wad i did but we dun work da same way..in my eyes,wad i did was not wrong n i dunnno how u got to know abt it but i hope it wasnt thru checkin my stuff..i dunno if u r ever gonna speak to me again but if u do,i noe things wont be da same..once again,im sorry

room,
i cant wait to fuckin move out..

life,
i guess i'll juz have to get used to it..

there u go..a perfect fucked up life completed wif a smile..

fad's told you a secret at 2:10 PM .

had a bbq cum chalet thingy yesterday..woke up early in da mornin n meet up wif my classmates to go n shop for da stuff..shopping in ntuc is always fun (very aunty,i noe) n we actually took quite a short time to get all da items..after dat,off to downtown east..

i had been waitin for dis chalet for quite some time now..it was all i could think abt while i was studyin for my bio prac n during da prac test itself,i was thinkin if i missed out on anythin to buy..it was crazy i tell u..i was practically counting down da days..it has been quite some time since i felt dis excited over somethin..it was like being a child again..

anyway,da chalet was gd..found out stuff abt each other..some expected n some intriguing..learnt a lot about my friends thru our 4hr long midnight talking marathon..
we juz started talkin n soon things were pourin out..i also said some stuff abt myself n ya,im actually quite glad to noe dat i do have support frm some of them although they r not obligated to do so..

wished da chalet was longer but it was fun n meaningful nonetheless..glad dat every1 turned up n everythin went well..hope to do dis again sometime soon..will miss da moments n conversations we had dearly..lookin forward to our work-first-den-save-money-to-go-to-(country undecided) trip..haha..

fad's told you a secret at 8:52 PM .

i still hear u in da rain

fad's told you a secret at 8:32 PM .