It's all hidden.

da moment i saw u cry,my heart juz broke..
i didnt noe my words were so important..
i didnt noe u were so upset abt da things i said..
i didnt noe u were so hurt dat it made u cry..
i didnt noe i was so important to u..

im sorry for all the things i said..
i didnt mean it..
im sorry i upsetted u..
i didnt see it coming..
im sorry u had to cry..
i m not worth ur tears..

i didnt noe wad to do..
i juz wanted to embrace u n tell u dat it was gonna be ok..
but,i guess it would be too weird..

all i can say now is,u didnt dissapoint me..
i m not upset..
i m not gonna leave..
u r important to me too..
however,i cant promise u things will be da same in da future..
let's juz hope everythin will turn out well..
once again,im sorry..

fad's told you a secret at 9:19 PM .

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fad's told you a secret at 7:35 AM .

i didnt look back dat evenin..

i asked if u regretted it..
u said yes..u did..
i didnt noe y but at dat moment i felt..somethin..somethin different..
i didnt noe u regretted it so much..
da way u looked when u said "yes,i regret"..
it was as if i was a mistake..a mistake dat happened to u..
i'm sorry u feel dat way..
but,i wanna tell u dat,i dont regret..
i never did..

da way u manage to make me feel dat day..dat was da reason i didnt look back..

fad's told you a secret at 11:15 PM .

i'm not sure when it happened but now i guess its a little hard to go back..
we were too foolish to think we can juz play da game n walk away as strangers when we r done..
now,u r stuck n i m left confused..
sometimes i wonder if i really mean it when i say dat u mean nothin to me..
izzit my way to protect myself frm u?
i noe i m tired of da games ppl play..
but,wif u,i dun seem to mind da fatigue..
u somehow make it worthwhile..
but,i guess we r not meant to be..
u already have a life..
now,i have to keep on lookin for mine..
da best thing for me to do now is to walk away..
leavin u behind..
afterall,i m dead inside..

fad's told you a secret at 8:58 PM .

happy birthday abang..happy birthday

fad's told you a secret at 10:10 PM .

for da first time in my life i dun noe wad da hell im doin..ppl keep on tellin me i have to try to accept wad has happened n i noe i should too..but,it is juz so hard..trust me i wanna get on wif my life as well but things r not easy..i never thought i will have to go through losin some1 so dear to me at dis stage of my life..it may not seem like i even think of him at all but in actual fact i think of him every single day..mom doesnt think i care but if only she knew how i am feelin right now..

i dun wanna look at his photos or talk abt him or visit his grave dat often coz it all juz reminds me of da fact dat he is gone..i dun think im ready to b facin dat right now..it may sound stupid but i will dial is hp no. sometimes juz to check whether i am juz imaginin all of dis..it all seems like a weird dream dat never seem to end..

i really dunno how to handle dis matter..dis is actually da first time im grievin n i dunno how to go abt doin it..i feel so helpless coz i cant even help myself..n pretendin to b happy in skool is tiring me out..even smillin is a chore sometimes..nobody understands me in skool n i dun blame them..i guess i dun wanna be understood..n it is not their responsibily to understand me..

however i would really like to thank those hu actually bothers to ask me out n tries to make things better for me..juz havin ppl ard me actually helps a lot..i deeply appreciate ur gestures..i will bounce back frm dis situation n try to accept things..but,i dun think i have da strength or guts to do it right now..i guess da day i forgive myself for not waking up sooner will b da day i let things go..i m juz not ready yet..not tonight..

fad's told you a secret at 10:15 PM .