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skool was normal yesterday except for da fact dat i saw fann wong,terence cos,darren lim n another actress whose name im not sure in my skool at da lab..weird..anywayz,today met up wif vicky n ate da choc fondue..n,I LEARNED HOW TO FUCKIN PLAY POOL..THANKS VIC!..

fad's told you a secret at 9:23 PM .

i saw some1 yesterday..some1 who i was quite close wif in primary skool..she looked a bit different but somehow very familiar..i looked at her n i looked away..i had nothin to say..i noe saw me too..she looked at me n looked away as well..

so dis is how it turned out in da end..gd frenz r turned to strangers in juz a matter of years..time is such a great seperator..fuck it..i wonder sometimes y izzit so hard for me to say hi?maybe its becoz i noe dat we lead our own sepearte lives now?i dunno..anywayz,im sure dis will happen again n again n again coz dats juz da way life is wif me..ppl juz come n go as they wish disregardin everythin..
fuck da world for screwin me..
fuck da ppl whom i tot were frenz..
fuck myself for believin there is such a thing as a "friend"..

its ok..i will no longer feel hurt coz i am now numb..i refuse to trust n believe dat ppl care coz dissapointment sux..i refuse to trust..i refuse to trust..i refuse to trust..
i am now alone...

fad's told you a secret at 5:32 PM .

i looked at the sky today..
i saw many clouds..
i couldn't make out the clouds..
i couldn't imagine a shape for the clouds..
i realised today..
the child in me..
is gone..

fad's told you a secret at 7:24 PM .

hmm..skool was normal today..i actually PASSED my bio test which is like so fuckin amazin lah..anywayz,went out wif vickypoo today..went to northpoint..it was like rainin like hell n dat ass made me walk to da pasar malam..n dat pasar malam had a mini flood lah so we wanted to go back to northpoint..den,all of a sudden,da rain startin puorin..like really pour man..n i was standin there wif my lappy in my bag singin songs in da rain wif vic while screamin for da fucked up cars to move faster..hahahaha..stupid i noe..n,haha,i went to switch off da lights in da northpoint toilet..haha..i can be so stupid sometimes..lolx..cant stand myself!

fad's told you a secret at 8:42 PM .

ok today wasnt as bad as yesterday..at least i wasnt in my pms mood..but,i still felt groggy coz BIO test is comin up in 2 days time!my goodness!n there's juz so many fuckin bones n muscles to study..not to mention da tissues...FUCK!
anywayz,learnt how to listen for sounds in da body today..quite interesting..ms bella allowed us some time to practise it on our own..den she came by to my grps bed to ask if we had any qn..some1 asked somethin n she asnwered..den,she turned to me n da funniest thing happened..she asked me if i had any qn...i said no den out of nowhere,she juz said,"I LIKE YOUR NEW HAIRSTYLE"HAHAHAHAHA..how weird is dat..ms bella..suddenly sayin dat..i was damn high after dat man..ms bella said she liked my new hairstyle..she fuckin noticed da change....HAHA..so damn cute lah she..
THANKS MS BELLA FOR MAKIN MY DAY!

fad's told you a secret at 10:41 PM .

Cant believe i actually went to bugis again..went wif vic today..bought a bag n a shirt..damn tired sia..n come home still go tonnes of projects n presentations to do..now im actually listenin to classical music..yup,CLASSICAL music..damn appreciation for the arts..i actually bought a cd to actually analyse da songs n guess wad?i have 60 songs to freakin choose frm..which means,i have to listen to ALL da 60 songs before choosin 1 or 2 to write da essay with..FUCK lah..dis is worser den lit coz im like a total music idiot..(as u all might noe da oni musical instrument instrument i've touched in my entire life is da RECORDER!)..rite now,vivaldi's four seasons:winter is playin..think i'll pick dis 1..

fad's told you a secret at 10:03 PM .