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1 month ago..

1+am:
-i felt like i was havin a fever
-i called home usin my hp thinkin dat u might pick it up n get me some medicine..u didnt
-i went out of my room,sick,i saw ur lights on,i ignored it..
-i went to mom's room n woke her up,asked her to get me some medicine
-she got up n took it
-she passed da medicine to me n tried to go in ur room..
-it was locked,she took da key..
-u were on da floor..she thought u were sleepin..she scolded u for not shuutin da windows..
-she called u to get on da bed..no response..she called again..nothin..
-she got scared n yelled for dad..he came runnin n i did too..
-i saw u on da floor..bloated n blue..
-i ran to my room to get my hp n called an ambulance..
-i ran back to ur room,i took ur pulse..nothin..
-i was scared but i didnt dare show it..mom is panickin..
-dad n i started givin cpr..
-again,nothin..
-i knew u were gone but i didnt wanna believe it..
-da ambulance came n did somethin to ur body..no response..
-they took u away..mom followed da ambulance..i went wif dad on his bike..
-at tan tock seng,we waited for da doctors to come out..
-he came n said..u were gone..
-mom was screamin..
-grandma was breathless..
-i started to tear..somehow it all seems real oni aft da doctor said it was true..
-we were brought to c u..
-u looked so peaceful..like u were sleepin..
-i kissed ur forehead,it was cold..so cold..

12+pm:
-u came home..they put u in mom's room..
-i looked at u..u were smilin..u seem like how u used t look when u pretend to sleep when i walked in ur room..
-i cried..
-the gave u ur last shower n lay u at the hall..where we would see u for da last time..
-i kissed ur forehead again..cold..
-i wiped my tears..u were leavin..
-i didnt have da strength to follow u to ur final restin place..
-i was sick,i didnt want ppl to worry abt me there..

now:
-u've been gone for a month..
-i miss u so much..
-our memories often play in my mind..both gd n bad..
-funny how our arguments seems so silly now..
-i want u to noe dat i will take care of mom n dad..dun worry..
-i noe u were proud dat i was to become a nurse..i will be a gd 1 for u..
-i noe dat i've never said this before but i want u to noe dat...
-i love u..

fad's told you a secret at 8:54 PM .