It's all hidden.

it's been a while.
many things has changed.
i'm someone else now.
more respinsibilities,both at work and home.

work
killing me softly.
sometimes it's good.
and when i feel like i finally can understand.
i fall again.
but this time,when i fall.
nobody's there.
as always.
nobody's there.

i wonder.
is it me?
or is it the world?

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fad's told you a secret at 4:41 PM .

Dear friend,

I know I said I understood
But actually I only wished I could
You said we will be friends forever
You said I will never be replaced
So what is happening now?
You don't seem to be like who you are

1 day you met him
And suddenly he was all you had in mind
You'd rather spend your time with him
And leave all the plans we had behind
Is there no more place for me dear friend?
Why do I feel like you're so far?
We went from strangers to friends to strangers again
Is this who you really are?

Dissapointment is what I feel
When I look back and see you with him
Don't get me wrong dear friend,
I'm happy that you have found a man
I just wished I could see the reason why
Being with him caused you to be so blind
I know I said I understood
But actually I only wished I could

fad's told you a secret at 11:19 PM .

Dear friend,
Im sorry for putting you through so much.
I know that you had done a lot for me and I appreciate every bit of it.
But,I don't know why,I just don't feel the same these days.
I tried to behave like how I normally do but the cracks are beginning to show.
It was that dreadful day when you had been less than honest did I realised that I had began to trust you.
And that,was the moment I knew that slowly,but surely,I have to let you go.
Dear friend,I'm sorry for putting you through so much.
I know that you had done a lot for me and I appreciate every bit of it.
But I have to,I just have to let you go.

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fad's told you a secret at 9:10 PM .

attachments at kk just ended..im quite sad surprisingly coz i was genuinely enjoying myself there..was able to learn many things frm very patient and understanding nurses..working with infants and children needs a lot of patience but it also brings a lot of joy..now,im seriously thinkin of working there one day..maybe,juz maybe,i'll end up working with those ppl who had helped me so much in this attachment..
so,here is my official THANK YOU to da STAFF NURSES AND ENROLLED NURSES of WARD 62 =)..u guys rock!!

fad's told you a secret at 5:16 PM .

he said:i love you..
i replied:you shouldn't..
he said:but i do..
i replied:why?
he said:maybe it's fate..i just don't feel right when i don't hear from you
i replied:hmmm..
he said:i really love you..
my heart whispered:ya right you moron..screw you..

only close friends would know who i had this conversation with.. :)

anyway,attachment at kk just started..so far so good..CUTE toddlers and TINY babies..hope they get well soon..

fad's told you a secret at 6:30 PM .

wad an enlightening week it has been..i finally stopped deluding myself n dis other person abt our grp of friends..things definitely has changed..suddenly we're now 2 saperate parties..it was expected actually since da amt of time we spend wif each other as a grp is actually less den an hr a day..but,da transition since to be too fast for dis friend..guess she is rather upset with what was becoming to us..whatever it is,i juz hope our relationship wont get strained since we will be seeing each other for da rest of our poly lifes..

on a brighter note,some1 wrote a poem for me..well,half of it anyway..here it is..

White Rose ( part 1 )
White Rose
dancing rain drops.
not even the water drops has such delicate hands
not even the snow has such been as white before as they land.
just like the pony covered with sand,,
should i climb over your window to give you a white rose,
or should i just be content being near but a distant away.
why should we believe in celebrations,
they don't last anyway,
id say, reincarnation?
why should we envy that diamonds are forever
when they are covered with bloods of the poverty,
nothing lasts forever,
but figures are till infinity,
but you made me smile.
in my deepest thought,
i pondered,and wondered.
will it be forever,
through the hands of the crippled,
only by nature they seem,
being wheeledchair around is not a joyful sight.
but being the hope that created the smile,
will remain blessed by Him,
you have given me what others cant,
to live and love life.
to be loved takes a miracle.
to have a miracle,
we must believe,..
believe in mystical?
life is a destination,
where it may lead is just a cycle
but love is a commitment,
like a pair of cuffs being shackled..
...

sweet isnt it?

fad's told you a secret at 8:35 PM .

things r juz so fucked up..

i guess i m pathetic..
my parents are constantly fucked up wif me..my friends r beginnin to move away..my cuz thinks im out to destroy her..my bedroom looks like a fuckin piece of crap..basically,my whole damn life is in a mess..

parents,
stop pushin me n i might stop pushin u away..

friends,
i wish to be there for every1 but some things i juz cant help..pls understand..

cuz,
u will probably not see dis but i'll juz say it anyway..
i will never,ever do anythin dat will hurt u..im sorry if u didnt like wad i did but we dun work da same way..in my eyes,wad i did was not wrong n i dunnno how u got to know abt it but i hope it wasnt thru checkin my stuff..i dunno if u r ever gonna speak to me again but if u do,i noe things wont be da same..once again,im sorry

room,
i cant wait to fuckin move out..

life,
i guess i'll juz have to get used to it..

there u go..a perfect fucked up life completed wif a smile..

fad's told you a secret at 2:10 PM .